The Big Lost

Wayne’s frequent trips to Mackay to fish the Big Lost with his youngest daughter created existential envy amongst her siblings 


In the early 1950s Wayne purchased a trailer in Mackay, Idaho and began fishing the Big Lost River in his free time.

Wayne had three young children in Pocatello at the time but preferred taking only his youngest daughter with him on fishing excursions to Mackay.

His oldest son and oldest daughter remained in Pocatello with their mother Millie while Wayne and his youngest daughter went away for a weekend together on the Big Lost.

This created a great deal of existential envy amongst the two siblings he left behind towards their youngest sister upon her return.

Over time, Mille began to loathe the child Wayne favored, and at one point renamed the child a derogatory pet name.

Moreover, as further result, Millie persisted in abandoning the 5-year-old child emotionally, thus in turn, rejecting and spurning her at every opportunity as if she was no longer a member of the vibrant Green family dynamic, whose motto is ‘family first.’

Unfortunately, the emotional abuse went on remorselessly without compunction throughout most of her life, where her siblings further cultured a similar resentment against their youngest female sibling solely in attempts at gratifying their matriarchal mother, ‘mommy dearest.’

In fact, it became old hat to the extreme it was routine to blame her for every pithy little thing. To the point her siblings all colluded just to make shit up, filing false reports just to fill their cup.

“Oh, common… you know you guys blamed me for everything you did by telling mother.”

Secret family Reunions

Later, as the siblings grew older and two more were added, secret family reunions without their younger sister became routine.

Apparently, through existential envy, the siblings organized in retaliation for Wayne favoring his youngest daughter when vacationing in Mackay on the Big Lost, and formed their own family vacation plans without their youngest sibling invited to join them at an event where it’s “Family First.”

The Big Lost River